Broken Smile
Hi , my messy blog ! Howdy ? I miss writing ,almost dying from busying. Also doesn't know how to describe my feeling lately . I keep thinking something that I shouldn't, such as why I so useless ? Why I can't speak in front of many people with a confident ? Why I'm such a coward ? Why people don't like me ? why people like my friends but not me ? and I felt like I'm not good enough for everyone. Lonely, if only it could describe it me right . I'm not lonely cause I doesn't have boyfriend , yet I felt lonely inside. Depression are a big word , I don't want to claim that I have suffering from this disease. Cause maybe people would never ignore about this . Should I claim , that I had mental illness? If only somebody would save me earlier , if only if . And i kept questioning myself , did I really have a friends? In my opinion , no . I have nobody besides me. Some of my "friends" only exist when they need me , when I need them . Told ya , it